use of time

i had sunday and monday off this week. and i didn't leave the house once. it's not just a matter of not wanting to spend money on gas, or not having friends in the area. i didn't even try and think of things to do. i knew i wanted to sleep in, but i squandered the days away doing that and watching movies. yesterday was the european cup final soccer game and i didn't even consider going anywhere to watch it. maybe it's okay for me to do this now, when i'm young and can be irresponsible. besides working i have no demands on me. it's such a strange feeling. even if i wanted to i couldn't be on the go all the time.
what will the rest of my life look like? what if i hold myself back, refuse to get involved in what's around me, am afraid to do things alone. i work now because i need to the money, but i hate the idea of working simply to make money. i want to love what i do. but i don't love doing anything more than i love people. so i need a job that involves people. but that doesn't exclude much. how do i find something that i want to continue doing? what is it that i want to do? i'm jealous of people who are certain of what they want to pursue. i wish i had more direction in my life.
there's so much i could do. i have mediocre abilities to do a lot of things, but not enough pull in one direction to pursue one option. i'm afraid of wasting my life; of not using what i do enjoy in a good way. i want to be able to involve all of my interests: photography, filming, writing, missions, traveling, people, reading, and so much more. it's just the problem of finding out how to do that.