2 yrs

some days i feel the urgency of the fact that one month from today i will have left the United States for 2 years. on those days i realize how much i still have to do in those short 31 days. i am painfully aware that i won't get to see any of my friends for a long time. i consider the fact that once again i will be at a very new beginning with very little familiar to orient myself by.
on other days all of those things seem very distant. the only thing i think about is whether i'm actually making enough money working this summer to be able to stand up on my own feet after the 2 years with OM. and why i have to take my eyebrow ring out to work at a Blockbuster. and when or if my friends will call today. and whether i really need a new pair of shorts just because the whole in the back of mine is now showing underwear.
but really, all those things, that might normally seem so distant from my other worries, aren't really that unrelated. because i'm worried about money after 2 yrs and i have to take my eyebrow piercing out for 2 yrs anyways and my friends won't be calling for 2 yrs and i do need a new pair of shorts because i won't be buying any for 2 yrs.
so it seems like no matter what i think about it's related to 2 yrs. the next 2 yrs.
after that, well i don't think about that at all. no really. not at all.