running without breaking a sweat

i like to run. no, not physically - but socially i like to go at a running pace. to say i like to stay busy, might be an understatement. i think if i'd grown up with the desire to work something specific, i'd have chosen something time consuming like law or medicine. i'd work until i drop. i'd invest my all, then sleep an hour, and give more. so it doesn't surprise me much that that's how i want to do ministry. i want something that fills my time. that requires constant maneuvering of schedules to fit in as much as possible. i want something that demands my attention because it's important. my dream job, at least for now, is something that will require me to rely so heavily on God that I can't do anything else but fall into his arms every morning. right now, i get to stroll to work. if i'm late, no one notices, cause most days i'm the first in my office area. while there are stressful days with deadlines, they are too far and few between. i want to jump out of my comfort zone. i want to be challenged every day. i have so much passion, so much energy, so much excitement and i want to spend it. without something to spend it on, the passion, the energy, the excitement evaporate. i'm not really sure where they go, but they take my desire to buy groceries, do laundry, make a phone call, or respond to an email with them. i'm not good at setting schedules for myself unless there is so little time that i'm forced to crunch everything and meet it on a run. which, is why i say i like running.